How Many....

So last night I think I had a bit of a ephipany....

There has been an on going conversation in our household since Gabriel was born as to weather or not we are going to have more children. I have been very nervous about making this desicion; afraid I was going to get it 'wrong'. I can see the benefits of either side. I loved growing up in a bigger family and all the comraderie that goes along with it. I think of who our future kids would be know that I would love them so much. I see what our family would look like in 10 years and find it tempting... BUT
I also love our little family right now as well. I am so enjoying that my kids are entering new stages and that we are able to follow them through. Holidays and traveling, even living abroad (all things I really want our children to experience) are much more likely to happen if we stay the size we are now.


I find myself swinging back and forth with all the pros and cons...worried about missing out on what God has for us as a family. And then my ephiphany...

God gives us the choice! It is not a matter of right and wrong as much as what we as a couple decide to make our priorities and goals as a family. We will seek to honour God whatever the size of our family and I think that is what God will honour.

So I really am still stuck in the throws of indecision but I have more peace about the fact I am able to make that choice. I know some will agree and others will not but my main concern was to ensure that as a couple we sought God's will in this matter...and to know that He is just allowing us to choose is such a beautiful relief.